hey folks,
i know this probably isn't the kind of place that i should vent this kind of anxiety but i thought some people here might have some good advice.
after being unemployed for the last three months i've finally got a job starting on monday. this is my first job as a software developer and it's for a pretty big company, so i really don't want to mess this up.
I've worked in transient, cash in hand type jobs in the States, in South Africa, in China, in Italy and other european countries (predominantly in the UK), doing all kinds of stuff between construction, waitering, pub promotion, farm work, teaching (in Chinese state schools), web-design liaison, office admin, tele-sales, courier (messenger) work, (the list goes on).
now, after a gruelling 3hr interview the company know my limitations, they know what i can do and what i can't and they are happy to train me to their specs. I am actually trained (I have a Masters) as a 'computer scientist'. so in theory it should all be fine.
however i am quite terrified about actually going to a job, particularly one that i do really want. in the past i've got and kept jobs easily because i have not really cared about them, now this is a proper career job. however i've got into the habit of staying up all night, sleeping till midday and being antisocial during the week.
How will i be able to be awake, professionally socially functional, able to actually learn the stuff that they are trying to train me in and actually perform well. I feel that i've been out of this kind of environment forever (as if i've ever actually been in it!). now i'm really terrified that i wont be able to do it. i feel like i should prepare, but i don't know what to prepare.
for those who have noticed my often unresearched an inane posts on ubuntuforums you will be happy to know they will probably be less frequent (subject to change - at least i'll try to make them all a bit more coherent and useful).
i am quite terrified about trying to be normal after being such a rolling stone for so long and about having the stamina to be able to work properly in a 9-5 (and not just want to go home at lunchtime).
thanks for any help or suggestion about this.
ps. separate subject: don't know if anyone heard about this:
http://www.technologyreview.com/comp...112/?p1=A3&a=f
but i think it's quite interesting (i mean the whole point of FOSS and the creative commons licence is to make free information legal. but if we really should be sharing info, is this kind of illegal activity be a good thing or a bad thing?).
thank you for getting all the way through my post.
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